Purpose of Life

I need to fall asleep desperately, but my mind keeps resisting. I'm not supposed to end my day yet, but its 2 in the morning. Had a brief chat with van today about dreams and aspirations. I don't know what am I living for. Nearly hitting my thirties, I still have not found my purpose of life. Its scary how time flies. Seems like only yesterday when I was crying and ranting about how life had mistreated me. Blink of an eye, a decade had gone by. Everyone has grown up and created a life of their own. So why am I still stuck here, in the same room and staring at the same ceiling like I did some 10 years ago.